i love to read. i mean, if i ever learned anything from my Mom it was blissful escapism in the pages of a book. That is now her life, and as sad as that sounds, i understand. She works her job and reads on breaks to prevent life from successfully severing the ties to fantasy. When she comes home, she hides in her room with her books and reads in peace. i won't tell you i never resented that her fantasy world was so much more important to her than i was. i did. i still do sometimes. She would put it down if we could give her a reason to, but she just never noticed when we might need her. My mom looks for love on paper when she has it right in front of her. She solves murders and unravels ancient mysteries. She lives vicariously through her favorite heroes and heroines and a pair of lovely Siamese cat sleuths. She has now read so many books she can't tell when she re-reads one.
i am almost as bad. i am much pickier than she is about who i will read and if it doesn't capture me in the first three chapters i can put it down and usually do. i don't read as often as she does, but when i do, i go in deep. i read about 100 pages an hour except Heinlein, Barker and King who put too much detail in there to go that fast. Those three also make me daydream about once a chapter, so i am at about 75 pages an hour with them. i don't eat, sleep or drink. i read from page one to the end and really don't take interruption well. i get really disoriented and it takes me a few minutes to remember where i'm at and who the hell is that talking to me?! It's really not pretty.
i just finished Everville by Barker. It picks up during the aftermath of his The Great and Secret Show and tells the before and after of the surviving characters. They are both so wonderful and highly recommended. As are all his books, actually. Especially Imajika. i used to have that one in hard cover, but i mailed it to Liv to cherish. She, in turn, hooked me on Truman Capote. Gotta love him, baby! Anyone who ever aspired to be a writer should really read the forward in his Music For Chameleons. He states it all so perfectly, i truly love his lyrical style.
i always feel such a sadness at the end of an exceptionally good book. It's hard to not go back and reread some of the pages and reminisce . . . it feels like saying goodbye to some great friends you met and went through such good and bad times with that you should be bound together forever, only, they have no future. Not until the bard that created them, creates that future. Then there is a joyous reunion and more stories to tell! i have fallen into to a contemplative and melancholy state since i just finished this one. So many ties left loose and so many stories unfinished . . . i wonder what are they doing right now? Does Phoebe dream her city back together? Does Tesla stay in The Reef? What happed to baby Amy in the arms of her father, The Death-Boy? WHEN WILL THE SEQUEL COME OUT!?
So, in short, i'm a big nerd. And i care why? At least i'm a big nerd with something to do, so, THERE!
i was kinda feeling generally bummed last night and wanted to eat at Manchu Wok (yes, i know i'm sick, but hey! i love the General Tso's Chicken there ~ it's my favorite! i am VERY picky with Chinese food. And i love the looks i get for eating with chopsticks. it's funny) so Roni and i went to the mall and stopped to buy a CD while we were there. i always feel better when i have a new CD, so i got DJ DARA ~ "From Here To There". It's a pretty fun mix CD with an eclectic selection and it put me right out. i fell asleep listening to it and had some crazy dreams that left me a little tired but peacefully content. i just didn't want to get up this morning. i wanted to float in that half dream for a while more but the alarm-clock radio came on and forced me to get up simply to turn it OFF!
I can see by your eyes you must be lying
When you think I don't have a clue
Baby you're crazy
If you think that you can fool me
Because I've seen that movie too
The one where the players are acting surprised
Saying love's just a four letter word
Between forcing smiles, with the knives in their eyes
Well their actions become so absurd
So keep your auditions for somebody
Who hasn't got so much to lose
`Cause you can tell by the lines I'm reciting
That I've seen that movie too
It's a habit I have, I don't get pushed around
Stop twinkling your star like you do
I'm not the blue print for all of your B films
Because I've seen that movie too
"I've Seen That Movie Too" ~ by Elton John / Bernie Taupin
confessed on 2001-01-16