have you ever had a dream so good you were hoping you'd have it again? i don't remember many of my dreams and the ones they stick with me are usually the ones so bad, they wake me up. i finally had a good dream, it takes me a whole day to remember it, and now it won't come back! What was your favorite dream? This one was weird but good and involved a hermaphrodite. i can analyze that one myself, thankyouverymuch!
Oooooh! i genuinely love rain! The fact that it is so rainy may be what has kept me in such a good mood lately . . . and what is making me so sleepy. There is something about an eternal gloaming that seems so . . . sensual. And the sound of rain falling is so soothing. i just want to curl up to a nice warm intelligent body and stay in bed all day. Drink warm tea and hot chocolate, read stuff, listen to music, watch a movie and just throw the covers over our heads and revel in each other like tomorrow just doesn't exist. Or sit on the porch, smoking and talking about nothing specific and whatever comes to mind while rain falls and the damp air caresses our faces and ruffles our hair and plays the wind chimes . . . and it always reminds me of Cure Disintegration playing softly in the background. i think of long walks on cliffs overlooking the ocean. And Percy B. Shelley. Yeah, it brings out the romantic dreamy side of me.
They only problem with my good mood and dreamy state is that it is fraught with frustration. The whole, "Why can't i have a normal relationship for once and be like everyone else for a change?" quandary. Followed by the "Because i'm not normal and never will be." answer. Oh, well. i guess even a peacock wonders what it would be like to be a simple blackbird once in a while. Especially back when they were cooking up peacocks and eating them!
Well, last night went well! i know i didn't mention it, but Naomi did. She invited anyone who wanted to go to meet us at Crystal's Pizza Palace in Irving and we had a lot of solid maybes but only her sister, Hannah, and her two girls showed up. Jason was there, too, and he totally beat my ass at air hockey TWICE! He is a vicious player, but good. It was a thorough lesson in humility but i had fun. Crystal's actually had fires going in both the fireplaces and we ate at the huge aquarium table, all the kids played themselves silly and a nice time was had by all. i am poking and prodding Naomi to declare a monthly day at Crystal's for everyone. It would be FUUUUN! But then, how many of you would actually come?
i filled out the paper work to have Roni tested for the gifted program at school today. Just so you know.
i'm your only friend, i'm not your only friend, but i'm a little glowing friend, but really i'm not actually your friend, but i am.
The intro to "Birdhouse in Your Soul" by They Might Be Giants
confessed on 2001-01-18