i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
"He's only MOSTLY dead!"

i need a list of the worst things you can think of to wish on someone. NOTE!: Pain is ok, but nothing that will permanently damage the body or kill. 'To The Pain' in not good. You can see my first thought above.

(Sorry, i spent so many years thinking i hated men, it is a conditioned response to go for the male genitals. In theory. In practice, i just can't. i'm a wimp. And they are fantastic toys, who'd really want to break a toy?)

ANYWAYS! Sheesh! i am so flighty today!

i had my evaluation yesterday. i did good. i always score myself lower than Ra does on my self-eval and she raises all my scores. i was supposed to show up with my list of personal goals for the year and i never can think of any, so she starts typing things like
Melissa will buy ten CDs a month this year
Melissa will try to keep one hair color a month, no more.
Melissa will get laid more often

EEEEKKKKKKK!!!! She was ready to print when i started yelling, "NNNOOOOOOO!" and i came up with some goals really quick! i think i promised to learn something and take a real vacation and help her streamline OPS and cut out the extra shit everyone is trying to throw on us to do. See, we are staffed 24/7 so we are the first solution on all the stupid shit. NO MORE I TELL YOU! We are not the little bitches around here! Find another hoe, dammit!!

i think also promised to pursue the 'Walk-A-Mile' program. it's like a sharing thingy where you can come in on a day off and chill with a different department for a day to see what they do. We used to have something like it, but they dumped it and now we want to get it back. OPS is so small as it is that when we lose someone else, we won't have enough staff to keep up. But we don't have any ideas on who to pull ~ the last person we pulled was a HUGE mistake but now, we're stuck with him and i wanna kill him every day i work with him. He is, quite simply and truthfully, THE MOST IRRITATING MAN IN THE WORLD. The fact that he is somewhere breathing right now, is irritating to me. Ever met one of those?

i was cleaning out my e-mail and i have a great one for you ~ "People are not just prejudiced, though . . . they are AFRAID. Terrified of anyone not exactly like them. So sad that this is what humans have come down to. a race of mindless clones led like lemmings along a merry path of destruction by soulless drones." ~ me on why herds of people scare me.

Go watch The Princess Bride!!!!
"Hello. My name is Aneigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die."
Mandy Patikin RAWKS!!!!
(he is the Spanish guy)


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confessed on 2001-01-31