i talked to Liv last night. She is really getting married this Sunday. i am still in shock. it's so difficult to fathom that the girl who never believed in marriage is taking the leap. And that she is so . . . blissful over it.

Oh! i have a good one for you! Define "hypocrite" ~ girl who refuses to update (the diary only her friends read) because she claims people tell her parents the contents of said diary but will spout off the contents of someone else's diary after being asked to not even read the damn thing.

Yeah, smooth one, isn't she?

So i don't know just what to do now. i guess she should burn me at the stake for some of the stuff i put in here . . . or maybe she will finally accept me as a person who is not her and back the fuck off understanding suddenly that i don't want her opinions. i only want love of family and acceptance and, if that is not possible, to be left alone.

Sorry, guys, i know it's totally "second verse same as the first". Forgive me? i refuse to run and hide ~ some of you guys are just so great and i can't believe you like reading my tripe but you seem to and i need this release.

i slept like crap again last night. This whole non-sleeping thing was cool as a kid but i have a JOB now and RESPONSIBILITIES. i may have to become a drug addict simply out of self-defense . . . . naw. i guess i'll just deal. i can't afford a new habit.

Hey, sign the board you weirdos! or even the guest book! tell me you were here!

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"Bad Day" ~ Fuel
"She had a bad day again
she said i would not understand
she left a note that said
'i'm sorry, i had a bad day, again' . . . "

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confessed on 2001-06-05