- "And she listens like her head's on fire ~ like she wants to believe in me"
- Sunday was a nice day over all. i had a friend at work to keep boredom at bay AND offer conversation and even lament the Supersonic Butt Dart with me. Gotta love friends, old and new! i have a feeling this one is a treasure.
- "i've never been so colorfully see-through head before"
- i get to see Sarah and Josh this week! i talked to my darling pretty lady yesterday and she was all wounded and having a shitty day and i sent her copious amounts of love and reminded her that i will be there this week and she will have me for a few days! i am still surprised on occasion that i have not one but several female friends . . . it's so hard for me to find women i like enough to keep and i miss her so much i am driving ALONE for 4 hours to a place i have never been! Oh! My heart is shining with glee and anticipation!
- "Don't go home, don't go away, don't let this end, please stay . . ."
- Friday was the last day of the original six week waiting period for Russ & Mary . . . they should hear about their work visas in the next week. i have eaten up every possible second with them in this waiting game. i tell them so often how much i love them and have even sat there, staring at them to memorize every little detail. i hate to 'need' specific personages . . . i despise the weakness and the dependency i feel when i need someone, but i need him. He is my best friend. i would never have imagined that i would be so sure of anyone's love and devotion and not be in love with them. i never thought i could love this much.
- "It's just rain, i smiled, brushing my tears away . . . "
- i can be a big girl and let them go, though. i can't lose them. He's not like any other and i am calm under the frantic turmoil. Where he is IS home. i will go home to visit them when i can and it will all work out with a little faith. i can make it so.
- "i wish i could just stop . . . i know another moment will break my heart."
- anyone want to travel far away from here and see the world and live life like there is no tomorrow? It�s simple . . . sign up as MY best friend! *sniff!*
"Letter to Elise" ~ The Cure
"Like throwing faces at the sky, like throwing arms `round yesterday i stood and stared wide-eyed in front of you and the face i saw looked back the way i wanted to but i just can't hold my tears away the way you do . . . "
nothing ever happens the way you think it should but where's the fun in that?
confessed on 2001-06-18