i got home at 5pm yesterday, showered, changed, and ran straight to work to see how things fared for the Angelic one and got to visit for a few. It was wonderful. i learned that i cannot read when he stands too close to me. i can look at the words but it's all just little crap on the screen and makes no sense. Just one of those odd little discoveries that makes my stomach all warm and liquid . . .
i went home and read a complicated mystery that jumped back and forth from the past to the present and traced a bunch of rich old Southern families and their secrets and past lives and all manner of mysticism and the chance to 'get things RIGHT this time around'. Yeah, i couldn't sleep again. It was a perfect vacation and i was back home to 'normal' . . .
i got a call from my Demonic Ecuadorian Cherub today! He is still in the area and wanted to come over for lunch one day this week (prolly on Wednesday, he says). It was nice to hear from him since i miss him, too. i miss when he lived right across from me and we'd take turns cooking for each other and how much he loves my steak. It was comfortable and nice to have a friend i could trust so close by. That way i could harass him when i was bored!
i am all kinds of hyper at work today because i took two No-Doz to alleviate a bad headache (it worked) and then i cleaned like crazy and paced. This was with the two sodas and being fairly 'rested up'. Oh, well. The Command Centre NEEDED me to climb all over and wash the stuff no one ever looked at . . . *grin* That and i needed to run all over the building for no real reason and totally disregard the phones . . .
Oh, by the way, i may fantasize about some of the horridly terrific things i'd like to do to people who piss me off (read: 'ex-husband') and i may put them here (i have) and laugh and get all happy and hyper at the thoughts i think (i do / did) but this is an extension of my head. i would not threaten them or carry them out under almost any circumstance.
(to be honest, i can't speak now for any circumstance that involves harm coming to Roni since i don't know WHAT i could do but then, i'd rather not think that she's ever come to harm again.)
Stupid threats are just that ~ stupid. Don't use them. Please. i IMPLORE you, don't sink to stupid threats as we all know they are dumb, dumb, ineffectual, and dumb. Not to mention the chances of doing what you threatened are now seriously slim as you WARNED them, you idiot!
The closest i came to a threat was telling Chip that if he knowingly endangered our daughter in any fashion i would fight to the death to make sure he never saw her again. He capitulated and returned the sentiment and we fully understood each other. We have worked together and consulted on opinions since and had very few disagreements over what is right and wrong for her. But then, we have much dumber things to argue about . . .
"Shameless" ~ Ani DiFranco
"i cannot name this, i cannot explain this,
and i really don't want to ~ just call me shameless . . . "
confessed on 2001-06-25