Yesterday was a Cure day from hell. Ra is currently unpaired and miserable over the breakup, so i ended up spending half the day talking to her with Disintegration playing softly in the background. We will be collecting my .22 Winchester and a brick and going to a range tomorrow. She has never fired a gun before and i thought it'd be a good time to learn. If she doesn't feel better after about 100 rounds, we may go to the batting cages.
My Little Rabid Baby is a little mixed up and sore right now and was looking for the perfect song for the day. We chose several Cure songs and they helped a lot.
After work and a lovely chat with The Amazing Ms. Kat i trucked it home for dinner and movie night with my Abbers. Boston Market and Blockbuster! We rented The Family Man, Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels, and Lost Souls. i bought Almost Famous since my Sarah and Abby and . . . well, everyone else i know, keeps telling me how much it rawks, and Abby picked up Gone in 60 Seconds on DVD to replace the copy some goofball used as a beer coaster!
We watched The Family Man first and followed that with Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels and both were good. Lock... etc totally kicked ass, actually, and was funny as hell. Abby has Snatch on DVD and we may watch that tonight after we watch Lost Souls.
i miss my Angelic darling . . . i don't get to see him at all today. i just get to see him a little at work tomorrow. i can't actually touch him until after work on Thursday.
My Sarah called me yesterday! She and Joshy are considering another move. To New Orleans. i'd finally get to go wander the streets of New Orleans! i want to go in the fall, around Halloween . . . i want to sit at a cafe table at dusk and drink spiked lemonade and hear the sounds . . . i want to walk past the cemeteries and Anne Rice's house and all the old crumbling houses and smell the air thick, heavy and damp with fried foods, sweat, sex, sewage, and sin. i want to stand in the rain there. i want to drive slowly by the swamp with the window down and absorb the echo of time and the feel of the lives that had played out there. Funny, i have such romanticized ideas about the whole state, but i think of it like this; the North has it's history and ghosts and all from the blood spilled across the bricks and dirt and the centuries of powerful histories being played out there, but the South has humidity. Humidity, as you may know, holds temperatures better . . . so why can't it hold everything else? The reverberations of lives and the sweat and blood that went into the twisted histories of the peoples who languished there since the first shimmer of time. The South is a very romantic place with a long history full of love, lust, greed, sacrifice, grand passions and intrigue ~ everything done in an expansive way. It's fascinating in all it's glory and drama.
And i'm rambling again. To end this vein, i love to read and watch the drama. i love to listen to the people. i love to sit in the shadow and soak up the feel of history. i hope they go.
i also got to see Cyn yesterday! She met Angel and liked him. Compared him to Russ. Could have coshed her on the head, but i didn't. She came up here on her day off to visit and stayed about an hour . . . it was nice to see her, it's been a long, long time.
Today i was a little late as i didn't want to get up. i'm still feeling pretty ill overall and my headache has been getting worse and making me so sleepy all the time. i slept right through all three alarms. But i'm here and i don't want to be and neither does Ra and i offered to go with her to the CT scan later just to get out of here. Eric is whispering to himself behind me and it's starting to scare me a little.
"Disintegration" ~ The Cure
"Now that i know that i'm breaking to pieces
i'd pull out my heart and feed it to anyone."
confessed on 2001-07-24