hi.
i miss some people.
Like, The Mangled Beauty and The Funky Queen who moved to San Francisco.
Like my best friend, Russ and the incomparable Mary who moved to Ireland.
Like the now elusive Crack Master, Rizzinite, and my Rabid Baby Girl who didn't really move much but are now too busy to visit much.
i miss the people i used to work with.
i miss a few things.
Like, being free to spend money on things i wanted on occasion.
Like, being able to buy things for my daughter.
Like, going to a friend's and buying dinner to cook for them and cheer them up.
i'm still looking for a job. This is not as easy as i thought it'd be (and i didn't think it'd be easy at all). i know it sounds so stupid when you know i have a little girl, rent, and truck payments, but i don't want to move backwards. i want to move forwards. i want a better job and more money. i want a new field or a challenge. i really need a chance to prove myself.
Oh, yeah, the temp agencies are slated for Wednesday.
if i am not working by next Friday, i will be applying at Wal-Mart, Target, Walgreen�s etc . . . if all else fails, i have management experience in grocery and i'd get a paycheck and a discount.
i think i'm getting sick or something. my throat is swollen or something to the point that i can hardly breathe and i ache all over. i sleep shitty more than not now and i'm snappish and bitchy. And tense. But i'm controlling it as best as i can and my baby is so wonderful and understanding ~ he's like my personal bomb squad ~ he totally diffuses me with a kiss and i can't help but relax around him. i fall in love again every day. i can't whine when i have the love of a man like that. Not to mention the exclusive rights on his lovely personage . . .
confessed on Friday, Oct. 19, 2001