i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
someone's always putting me in my place like

i have a week with out my girl. No, actually, WE have a week with out our girl. She is out with her Daddy and Myste for the week since school is out. i miss her but it is a great break for all of us. i have been getting so frustrated with her school behavior that it's been very tense and stressful at home and that is not right. You should be able to go home and relax, not get all wound tight and break.

We had a nice weekend, though! On Saturday, we three all went to a park to see Angel's Dad since it was the last stop on the poker run that he was in on. (he is a biker when not at work.) We talked to him and met some of his family (who were a little surprised by Roni and her age, but recovered well), and played on the play ground for a while. It was a blast to spin on the merry-go-round until Roni was sick and we laughed and laughed . . .

But then it all ended when we had to leave to take her to Darth Mom's for dinner and spending the night. She was scheduled to go to church the next morning and meet up with Daddy and Myste for the trade-off.

Speaking of Chip and Myste . . . i don't know how things are really doing over there. Neither of them is currently working and i stopped getting my checks and the state will go after him soon if he doesn't get moving ~ he is already 2 months behind and has done nothing to make up for that. He also has a house payment to make along with bills and i don't know how much of this Myste will put up with, especially since her Mom has been telling her to leave and can, at any time, cut her off to force the issue. i feel bad for him and all, but it would only be what he deserves.

i have great news that i desperately want to talk about but i can't. But the dinner was nice and the evening was full and fun.

We decided what we were doing for Thanksgiving! We are going to see Angel's Mom's family. We will see mine on Friday since we have Roni then. The weird thing is that currently, He has to work on Friday and i may have to, also, so it could turn out to be my family with Roni for her birthday. i did call and ask Darth Mom to find out if we could have the girls for Friday. i figure i can drop them off on Saturday night with Melissa and go to the parentals in the morning at church, or i could even take keep them until after church is out on Sunday . . . i miss those girls and love them to little bits.

Funny how things just flow out when i plan in here ~ it all just falls into place for me. i think better with a keyboard at hand!

Oh! Keyboards! That reminds me! For those who used to chat with me on AIM (AOL) i don't have it on the computer at home. However, i DO have MSN and Yahoo chats, so e-mail me and i will add you to one of those if you are not yet on there.


"Control" ~ Puddle of Mudd
"i love the way you look at me
i love the way you smack my ass
i love the dirty things you do
i have control of you . . .
"


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confessed on Monday, Nov. 19, 2001