i was supposed to be in San Angelo by now. i was the one who promised to drive out there and pick up the most wonderful Jian. But i was grumpy and sore this morning after feeling crappy last night and my darling sweet manly figure took that to mean that i didn't need to go and he left without me. i was grumpy and sore because i wanted to get up early but not at 6:30 AM when his alarm went off!
Oh, well. i had wanted to meet Rev while i was out there and maybe even drink a REAL margarita with her this time over some lunch, but i guess i'll have to go another time. Damn!
So, here i am with the unruly girl-child and a messy apartment and the energy to deal with neither of them as my back is killing me and i still feel shaky and abused after yesterday's caffeine OD.
Even my skin hurts today. i would go take a shower but i don't know where i should take it to and what if the place i take it to doesn't welcome showers? What if they kick my shower out and i get to stay? Would it be rude to blow off my shower and leave it standing outside the window, all sad and shit? Now i feel guilty for even considering it.
i think i want to try to get in touch with The Near Miss and finally meet her like i have wanted to for so long.
confessed on Saturday, Jan. 26, 2002