i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
The first day at Sprint PCS . . .

. . . and it wasn't that bad.

i was impressed with the call center and trust me, when it comes to call centers, i am jaded. i was impressed with the actual facility, the equipment, the extent of the automation, and the overall morale and atmosphere. People walk down the halls here SMILING!

Tonight, Angel and i went and bought me some work clothes then stopped at Buck 'N' Loons for dinner since there is no food at home right now. i needed a few things to wear since my wardrobe i denim and black T-shirt based and there is none of that whole denim scene going on at Sprint PCS.

i was honestly looking at skirts.

It was so very creepy.

i would blame it on having an insane headache and not eating for so long i was shaking and weak, but i looked at those particular skirts the last time i was at Lane Bryant and wanted them.

What i want more than anything, though, is for my boobs to miraculously shrink about 50% so i can wear a bustier. There are some beautiful ones there that fit me, but my boobs just overflow and ruin the whole look till i want to cry.

Sometimes i hate being a girl. Other times, i just hate my boobs.

*Le sigh* Oh, well. i guess me and my massive mammaries will go get all slippery and wet now. Then i will crawl into bed, alone and try to {FINALLY!!!!} get some sleep. i have been up way too late every night for the last month, i'm completely drained and exhausted, but for some reason, i just don't think i'll be able to sleep {AGAIN . . .}. That sucks so badly that i can't even think of a suckism to describe the dizzying heights and spiraling depths of it's sucky-ness.


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confessed on Tuesday, Apr. 02, 2002