i have a new home! *yawn, stretch*
i think i will like this one better! My other page was so old and simple and i rarely had the time to REALLY update it. It was so sad. i found myself using it more than anything as a big bookmarks site!
oh! i guess some of you might want to know who i am! hhhmmm . . . who am i? i am the whole of what is in my head ~ i am ME.
How else am i to describe myself? i could just point you to a few of my favorite sites or straight to my bestfriend's site and tell you she has some pics of me, but . . . oops! i DID!
That still won't tell you who i am or why it's a nice place to visit, but you wouldn't want to live there. neither does it tell you why i am who and how i am.
That's why i am here, writing to purge my mind of all that is locked up inside of me ~ a sort of mental masturbation of sorts. That and if i give a medium to the voices in my head, maybe they will stop talking to ME so much . . . . it gets lonely up there sometimes.
i am a 26 year old single mom of a 5 year old daughter, Veronica who i embarrass constantly since i will eternally call her by the moniker she has been known as since, oh, BEFORE BIRTH, "Roni". Ever since the adventure she had with scissors at her gramma's that left her almost bald, she has insisted on being called "Veronica" to avoid being mistaken for a boy. i just smiled at her and said, "Buck up, son, and don't cut your hair." tee-he-hee! This has now become our little joke and a code for impending trouble. If i look at her and call her "Son"she knows to back off ~ this way, she saves face and i don't have to look like a harrigan. (and people wonder why she is so well behaved . . . they just don't understand the code!)
i am currently seperated (for over 2.5 years) from her father, but any thoughts of divorce are laughable. He is happily settled with his new family (they have a 3 month old son) and not in any hurry to finished what he started the night he walked out on me. did you know that the custodial parent is responsible for filing for custody & support & is supposed to do so at the time a seperation is obvious? i didn't! i just now got the custody / visitation / support isseu finalized in teh courts and i am so relieved! at least when we eventually do get the divorce prepared, it will be easier since this is all spelled out. I had to go through hell to get them to drop the "retroactive support owed" and earned (AT LAST!) some respect from my eventual-ex. i really don't know where he was living all those years we were together, or with whom, but he still expected me to try to screw him. I took the bitch test and came away with only a 70% ~ PROMISE! i have some of the most vindictivly satisfying thoughts, i laugh maniacally like Mr Burns, then I feel better ~ I am NOT a psychotically vindictive bitch!!!!!!!!!! well, at least i feel a little better, now . . .
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"no one's picking up the phone
guess it's clear he's gone
and this little masochist
is lifting up her dress
guess i thought i could never feel
the things i feel
hey Jupiter
nothing's been the same
so are you gay
are you blue
thought we both could use a friend to run to"
Tori Amos ~ "Hey Jupiter"
confessed on 2000-10-15