i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
bbzzz bbzzzzzzz bzzz bzzzz!

Three days in a row! Wow. i'm sure you are wondering why, huh? No? Ok.

i had a bad spasm headache on the right side so i felt all weak, shaky and in pain, so i took the only thing i have on hand ~ half a muscle relaxer. (it really does make sense ~ these are from stress and tension. i can't eliminate the sources but i CAN eliminate the product of the sources.) Now i am sitting here feeling floaty and spacey and thinking what seems to me to be profound thoughts but i'll be damned if i can remember them two seconds later. This shit turns me into a goldfish! A goldfish with a buzz saw 'bbbbzzzzz' ing away in her head. And fingers made of lead. And eyes that droop slowly down and make her want to sleep . . . .

And under all that is the same headache i had before. Have you ever been hit in the head really hard? It is a sudden blinding pain followed by the throbbing hollow pain and it feel somehow 'off'. That's what i felt like with out the beauty of a person to blame.

Ooooooooh! Fluffing, snuffing and tweaking! The conversations we have up here are amazing!

THE CAROSEL LIGHTS ARE SPINNING SPINNING SPINNING

i am too close to too many people right now and this first hour is bad on this medication. All i have to do is get through the first hour of insanity and fight to take control back. it makes me so thirsty and i have drank 50 oz of water in the last 45 minutes. freaky.

SO WHAT IF I DON'T MAKE SENSE RIGHT NOW!

i love you all . . . .


"Anything, Anything" ~ Dramarama
"i even gave you candy gave you diamonds gave you pills
i gave you anything you want ~ hundred dollar bills . . .
"


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confessed on 2001-06-06