i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
JUST SO YOU KNOW

we located Nemo tonight, he is safe and sound at home with his Dad. it's OK, you can go back to your orderly lives now and stop searching dental offices. i promise.

Roni is home and we had pizza for dinner and went to find Nemo and finally stopped at Denny's to get her a scoop of ice cream and ran into Angel and Mary so we hung out for an hour.

The Bad Boy was in a great mood. Mary is really following through with rebuilding her life and testing all the waitresses waters. She looks happy and more relaxed even though she is running a little empty with two jobs and a night life, but i think she'll slow down a little soon when she meets the two biggest objectives - home and car. i was really glad to see her - i miss her a lot but i'd tried not to think about it too much, just like The Bad Boy. if i don't think about it too much it's almost like it all happened to a close friend and not me. just like how anyone looks good with enough liquor, i hurt less if i think of other things.

yesterday was work and Abby. i was wild and crazy and took a new and different way out to Irving from Ft. Worth that i'd not taken in a long time and certainly not without written directions. i got there faster and without incident! i was proud . . . i'm the kind that can get lost driving straight on a road that has no cross streets or turnoffs. ya know that moron in horror movies that gets everyone lost at night in the rain in the middle of nowhere what they are all supposed to be safe in town? that's me. that is one of my powers.

we went to Outback and had fries and Wallaby Darneds and recapped the previous night (i'll get to THAT in a sec) and then we cruised by Blockbuster and picked up a few movies. i bought Intacto, Life or Something Like It, and The Children of Dune.

Intacto is about a guy who survives a plane crash only to get caught up with people who gamble with lives. they really want to test his 'luck'.

Life or Something Like It is the Angelina Jolie film about the reporter who is told she'll die in one week and suddenly starts trying to live.

The Children of Dune is the SciFi channel's mini-series that follows the Director's cut box set of Dune that i bought a while back. i love both these movies and i really want to get all the books - the WHOLE series and not just the three they made movies out of.

Abby bought a couple of movies, i think, but we only watched Head of State that comedy where Chris Rock runs for President - and wins! it is a cheese fest of black and white stereotypes, overacting, and obvious gags but it was funny and that is the purpose, right?

the previous night, i had just crawled into bed when i got a call from a very drunk Abby who was here, in Arlington, at a party where a drunk guy got too friendly and she wanted to go home. i called The Bad Boy and we ran out to get her and took her home, only having to make ONE stop for her to free the evil sprits on the side of 360.

strange, but there was no thought in my mind other than to grab him and save my babygirl - no one else i would have called. and he didn't blink just ran out the door to help.

he stayed with the woman he hated but left the one he loves. some days, i just don't understand anything. most days i just live and let go. today, i got a hug. that is more than i can hope for so right now, i am going to bed.

g�night, chidrens.


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confessed on Sunday, Aug. 17, 2003