i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
"She has fulfilled her time here at Life."

So, it's been a week. i am in "nesting" and really it's just a lot of extra training to say "We know you were just in training for this, but that was prepared by a TRAINER and THIS is how we REALLY do this."


it seems a little redundant until you get to something where the two are not the same and then you see the real value.


today the red crept in and spoiled my good mood. i need some chocolate. i just wanna go home, eat cereal and play Lottso. or die. dying sounds reeeeeaaaaal good right now . . .


1 people would kill me now and spare me the pain

confessed on Wednesday, Jun. 22, 2005