i am sorry, i know yesterday was a bit of a downer of frustration. i have been a little overworked lately and i have no real release valve but we are getting it all under control, seriously.
i was also veeeeery high last night on a combo of antihistamine and some kinda Bondo crap used to resurface the tub. my head was a big balloon and my body the string and i was floating all over the apartment and had to tie myself to the chair to write the entry and i kept rising up and sinking down and Angel was laughing at me but i didn't think it was funny at all . . .
nevermind.
it has been a long couple of weeks.
i wouldn't have missed it because it forced me out of the house when i have been so very reclusive lately. now i just need to focus on my home to get it all straightened out. i can't live in this kind of clutter and chaos. i wake up several times a night to despair over it and i don't know where to start. does anyone have a riding crop of a whip and a strong sense of . . . dominance and house keeping? i'll be forever grateful if you'd come and tell me what to do!
or someone to gently keep me focused might work.
oh! speaking of whips, i need a real bullwhip - and a good one, too - then i need to someone to work with me until i can not only hit specific targets but also grab and release things with it. this has been a goal of mine since i was a kid. don't ask why - i can't explain.
confessed on Tuesday, Oct. 28, 2003