i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
i hurt and oh, yeah ~

i have a pretty high tolerance to alcohol, pain, medicine, morons, pets, and bad music, really, i do.

i can't take this pain any longer.

i got my meds and the Lortab is a joke.

Only, i'm *not* laughing.

Oh, well. i am close to running totally out of money and though that does not make the world go round, it certainly buys the stuff that does and my world is at a stand still right now.

and BTW ~ i'm moving this weekend. Same complex, new unit. i have 2 days to do it and i have to work on one and my manager's really cool daughter is having her b-day party on the other. i'll see how it goes. at least i finally got a two bedroom!

My darling is the greatest guy in the world! he totally understands why i wanted to make sure that 'OUR' first home is one either of us could afford alone . . . you never know nowadays ~ one of us could be hit by a bus tomorrow for all we know and it makes me feel safer to know i won't lose my home if he was taken away somehow.


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confessed on Thursday, Oct. 04, 2001