so, i was talking to a long-lost ear last night and i realized a few bright shining things.
relationships are damaging for me. i hurt others, they hurt me, sometimes both.
sex really doesn't appeal to me anymore.
i'd rather have one friend that a million admirers.
women are vicious and frightening.
i'm going to be happy again being 'single and not interested'.
now, don't start thinking i'm gonna hide in my house and sulk or gather a bunch of cats or anything - i won't. i will start school, eat better, replace the tires on my bike and maybe even ride it. There is yoga and rummy, baking and other people's children.
i feel lighter and happier than i have in a long time.
i have a great kid, some tough times and hard work ahead. there is much to be done to repair in the hole left in our lives. for some of us it will be easier than others.
at least we are finally seeing clearly.
confessed on Monday, May. 01, 2006