i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
"Suck it up, kid, assume battle poise!"

Hey guys, i got the next book in a series and dropped out for a day or so. it was a big book.


Friday was just work and then i hung out with The Ronica. we went shopping, ate lasagna, and i baked an oatmeal cake for work. Saturday, we had a spread at work and we all just sat around eating and talking all day with occasional calls. normal Saturday. after work, i came home and we all scrounged up whatever for dinner and watched Lilo & Stitch.


Today i will be going out walking with Stacy and The Ronica. It is so weird having Roni here on a weekend, but i wanted to do something with her for a change. with her weekends split between her Dad's and my Mom's i never get to just hang out and go do normal stuff. Anyways, i hope she can walk a mile and a half. after the healthy thing, i think we'll . . . uuummm . . . go . . . aaahhh . . . well, i don't know, but i'll try to think of something. i was thinking of getting her a diary. something she can update and practice writing in. maybe we'll do that.


there seems to be a misunderstanding about my feelings towards bathrooms. i love bathrooms. i have forever said that Heaven has toilets. it's part of my heaven/hell is relative theory. my only thing was that public restrooms are not places to talk on the phone. like masturbation, it is a private thing, and though both can be shared, it seems best to leave that to porn, the privacy of your own home, or the local no-tell-motel. it is not for public consumption.


i'm off to get ready for my long walk . . .



"nightmare" ~ Eve6
"Blemishing mirror fright, gonna take a bit of a fall tonight
Dreamed that I was underneath a naked women saying something that I can't repeat
Awakened by the runway noise, suck it up kid, assume battle poise
It's a lonely time for yours truly I know
I don't need to stay awake

In my nightmare I feel so alive
In my dreamscape escapades
I make the grade I save the day

Pull here push me there a little lower little closer to the spot that's bare
That's the toy that fills my void it's apparent I've inherited a demon joy
It's a lonely time for yours truly I know
I don't need to stay awake

In my nightmare I feel so alive
In my dreamscape escapades
I make the grade I save the day
"


1 dreamscape escapades in my nightmares

confessed on Sunday, Apr. 10, 2005