i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
that's a relief . . .

you know, i thought i was turning into a horrible hell bitch and there was a conspiracy against me but then i realized it was just PMS and some people are very lucky to be alive.

a quick random link on that subject.

this is horrible. twice in recent history. the beginning of July and now the middle of August . . . please don't let this happen on my birthday!

it's been a bad enough year so far, my heart's been ripped out still beating and seems to be hooked to a battery in a Petri dish elsewhere, do i really need to bleed to death, too? i mean really - i can see why they make that joke about trusting women . . . would YOU trust something that could bleed for 5 days straight AND NOT DIE?!?!?

me neither.

this girly shit is making me crazy.

i wanna bite someone.

have you ever seen the movie Mercy?

yeah, like that.

i hate doing laundry in the middle of the week for no reason other than i am tied to a phone and unprepared.

girls are e-vile.

being a girl is e-vile.

'e-vile' is my word for being both evil and vile at the same time.

i accepted the job offer. i will miss The Tick. and Stitch. and . . . no, that's it. everyone else can go, i guess. i can't stand the Jr. High Gang and Miss Glorianna wouldn't stop calling me so i don't have to worry about her forgetting me.

i went to dinner at my Mom's - we had egg salad sandwiches. i love egg salad so much it's crazy. i'd go to hell fire breathing gasoline for good egg salad. i made this one myself - egg, bacon (crispy), a lot of mustard, pickles, real mayo, a splash of pickle juice, a chunk of freshly grated parmesan and a sprinkle of paprika. on toasted wheat-nut. mmmmmmm . . . YUM!

then mom insisted on a movie, so we ran to Blockbuster and got Serving Sarah. she likes both kinds of movie - comedies AND dramas. : P but oh, well, it was pretty funny and had Bruce Campbell in it. he's been a busy, busy little boy recently.

well, i have a migraine last night and the 'tainted sister' tonight, so i'm gonna bail and get some rest. i prolly won't sleep, but i will relax.


1 = number of people who give a shit.

confessed on Friday, Aug. 15, 2003