i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
Testing . . . testing . . . ahhh!

i think i'm sick and i finally quit smoking as i think that's why. i feel like crap today and slept from 10pm last night through to 1:30pm today. i woke breifly to say goodbye to my darling and get medicine at 7:30am and once last night when Tonya and Juliet called to say hi, but that's cool, i never mind hearing from friends.

i told you that i was taking a bunch of tests, so here they are . . .

many many tests

five tests, i think

Not only considers her demands minimal, but also regards them as imperative. Sticks to them stubbornly and will concede nothing.

Your Stress Sources
Eager to make a good impression, but worried and doubtful about the likelihood of succeeding. Feels that she has a right to anything she might hope for, and becomes helpless and distressed when circumstances go against her. Finds the mere possibility of failure most upsetting and this can even lead to nervous prostration. Sees herself as a 'victim' who has been misled and abused, mistakes this dramatization for reality and tries to convince herself that her failure to achieve standing and recognition is the fault of others.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Able to obtain physical satisfaction from sexual activity but tends to hold aloof emotionally.

Your Desired Objective
Desires a tranquil, peaceful state of harmony offering quiet contentment and a sense of belonging.

Your Actual Problem
Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. She is trying to escape from this into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, protecting her from dissatisfaction and lack of appreciation.

Your Actual Problem #2
Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on her resources. A feeling of powerlessness subjects her to agitation and acute distress. Tries to escape from this by relinquishing the struggle, and by finding peaceful and restful conditions in which to recuperate in an atmosphere of affection and security.
Color Quiz

Introspective / Sensitive / Reflective
You come to grips more frequently and thoroughly with yourself and your environment than do most people. You detest superficiality; you'd rather be alone than have to suffer through small talk. But your relationships with your friends are very strong, which gives you the inner tranquility and harmony that you require. You do not mind being alone for extended periods of time; you rarely become bored.
Personality Test

1. Energy balance
Your personal energy is dominated by the wood element, supported by metal. Your most depleted energy is water. These three energies interact dynamically as follows:
- metal energy, if present in any quantity, has a moderating effect on wood;
- water energy has a tendency to transform into wood.
2. Personality and meditation subject
In terms of Buddhist psychological theory, your personality is the "aversion" type. As with all personality types this is fine in moderation, but if unchecked it may develop into anger. To prevent this from happening, a suitable meditation subject is compassion. You can either meditate formally on this subject, or just contemplate it occasionally in your daily life.
Zen Test

Here is the result of your Weirdness Purity Test.
You answered "yes" to 80 of 116 questions, making you 31.0% weirdness pure (69.0% weirdness corrupt).
According to the scoring guide, your weirdness experience level is:
Certifiably Weird - It�s amazing you can understand humans at all!
Weirdness Purity Test


Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz


Take the Which Beatle Are You? Quiz.


Take the Which Empire Records Character are You? Quiz.

Which David Bowie are you?
What Video Game Character Are You? I am Kong.I am Kong.

Strong and passionate, I tend to be misunderstood, sometimes even feared. I don't want to fight, I don't want to cause trouble, all I ask is a little love, and a little peace. If I don't get what I want, I get angry, and throw barrels and flaming oil at whatever's stopping me. What Video Game Character Are You?


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confessed on Sunday, Jan. 06, 2002