i dreamt i saw you walking
up a hillside in the snow
casting shadows on the winter sky
as you stood there counting crows
one for sorrow, two for joy,
three for girls, and four for boys,
five for silver, six for gold, and
seven for a secret never to be told

there's a bird that nests inside you
sleeping underneath your skin
when you open up your wings to speak
i wish you'd let me in

from "a murder of one" ~ counting crows
wax on . . . wax off . . . wax poetic on nothing

i live in my head mostly and lately there has just hasn't been a lot of room to share. i guess what i am trying to say here is i can't really invite you in, but i'll lean out the window and chat a little . . .

i don't go out much and i have been reading a lot more and working almost all my hours and not signing up for early release as often and sleeping on the longer side of normal but still not as much as i had been. i watch a few movies and play a few games and eat bran muffins and bran cereal and Triscuts like i get paid for it.

in short, there hasn't been a lot going on in my life.

now, there is one place i will go on occasion and that is over to Abby's to chill out but that's just like driving to another version of home only there are a few more cool siblings there. we eat chicken strips or wings and sit around in front of cable to talk and occasionally watch somebody's favorite show or another person beat a level in some game. maybe we finger comb each other's hair and tell girly secrets while the guys stand on the porch smoking. mostly we chill in company of others who like to chill.

i don't do much by way of really stimulating conversation right now and i don't like getting dressed in anything i want to go public with. i keep my hair in a scrunchy bun on the top of my head and don't use a brush on it anymore - it keeps falling out so i gently finger comb it and twirl it into a loose bun.

i listen to a lot of music.

i read Laurell K Hamilton's Cerulean Sins a few days ago. i am re-reading just to make sure i didn't miss too much.

we got new phones with my tax return - we turned off the house line when we switched to cable modem from DSL - so i figured as long as i can bargain shop AND get a discount on top of that, we might as well go high tech. i am so excited i can't stop playing with my new toy! i quickly got tired of the boring pictures and ringers i could get so i started working with Angel to make our own. i have an all Simpsons themed phone! it's so fun! everyone really needs to go get a Sprint PCS vision phone!

i will be going to a concert soon - Matchbox 20! i am pretty excited about the show. i fell like it will be good to get away and that is exactly what we are doing. Abby and i will be driving to Little Rock and sleeping all day, going to the concert and sleeping some more and then driving back the next morning. it will be slow and lazy. i already booked the room.

oh, and remember my last encounter with an alternate form of hair removal? the diamond dust sandpaper buffing thing? well, look out world, today i bought WAX!!! i think i'm going to go try this out now, so . . . until later!

just sign the guestbook if you hear me scream.


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confessed on Tuesday, Apr. 15, 2003